Just when I think I have parenting down, the universe says: Hold my beer. Is it weird my five year old feels like a stranger to me some days? I know it’s not just me, Brandon is feeling it too – and we are dumbfounded at how quickly Annabelle is growing up. There is a certain struggle with adapting to the next stage of childhood. With new behaviors, attitudes and habits, Annabelle is rapidly changing and I can’t keep up.
We’re now entering unchartered territory… next stage of childhood
After doing a bit of research, I realize Annabelle is entering a new stage of childhood: school age. That’s unchartered territory for us as parents over here. Despite my experience as an elementary school teacher, no amount of time spent in a classroom can prepare anyone to be a parent. One moment you have the nicest kid in class and the next you find out she isn’t so kind after all…
It seems like just when I thought I figured out infancy, Annabelle became a toddler. Then overnight she went from toddler to preschooler…
Did we teach her these behaviors? Is she getting in trouble at school because of something we did (or didn’t do)? Is this our fault? HOW CAN WE FIX THIS?
Watching my oldest morph out of a sweet toddler stage into an eye-rolling almost kindergartner is tough on my heart. She isn’t little in the same way anymore. Her voice is matured, her vocabulary explosive, and the defiance in her “No” upon being asked to do something is frustrating. Annabelle was always polite, respectful, and sweet – but now there’s an undeniable sassy tone. An obstinance in her attitude. Lately she has been shocking us – those moments have an impact on us as parents because we immediately question ourselves. Did we teach her these behaviors? Is she getting in trouble at school because of something we did (or didn’t do)? Is this our fault? HOW CAN WE FIX THIS?
The past couple days I’ve struggled with a lot in terms of parenting. I’m feeling lost, but actively trying to figure out how to navigate this new stage of her (our) life. I can’t figure out who Annabelle is going to be… and I don’t know if I’m supposed to be able to know that right now.
Annabelle is developing rapidly before our eyes and I want to make time slow down… I know these moments are difficult, but fleeting and soon to be nothing but a memory. All of that combined is overwhelming. There’s too much to understand… too much to learn… too many trials/errors… and not enough caffeine, lavender, and wine in the world to accompany parenthood.