It seems kind of fitting that I had a post written for today – all about the way my life has changed in the past 10 weeks – and of course, Blogger deleted it after I hit Publish. A lot of things don’t go my way these days. I wrote it while Annabelle was napping in the Moby on my chest. She is awake now… but rewriting the post would take too long for I don’t even remember half of what I said. Now…I am typing this as she sits in the crook of my arm, gnawing on her fist, and drooling all over her bunny.
My post was going to talk about sleeping – or lack thereof – and how it really doesn’t matter to me anymore if I don’t sleep at night. Last night Annabelle had her third night in a row of a 5 hour snooze. I laid awake for two of those hours. I watched her eyelids flutter and listened to the sweet coos she makes when she sleeps. I thought about how lucky I am to be her Mother. This morning, I have no regrets for wasting two hours awake when I should had slept. Wanna know why? It’s because I can sleep another day when she is all grown up. For now I don’t want to miss anything.
She is now going wild staring at her feet while I type. Watching her concentrate so hard on those little footsies and knowing that she has no idea those feet will take her all sorts of places someday – it’s an incredible thought.
I have no regrets that I have spent the last 3 hours sitting on the couch with this little love bug trying to blog… while my house is a mess and I haven’t brushed my teeth yet today. Oh and my inlaws are on their way here. They won’t mind a messy house and bad breath right??
As a Mom, I’ve had to learn that things aren’t always going to go my way. Does this make me unhappy? NO. It doesn’t. They didn’t always go my way before I had a baby. I had more control over my life though – I could go to the store when I wanted. I could go to the bathroom when I wanted. I could even eat lunch with two hands. Now… there is a tiny human whose diaper is currently falling off that needs my attention. And I am OK with that. I love it. Every day there are new challenges and I am ready to embrace each and every one.
Now she is screaming… and climbing up my chest. So… I can’t finish this post. After I hit Publish, I am going to rock to sleep. And then I am going to snuggle her for as long as I can… and I will have no regrets.
Beautiful post <3 So refreshing to see such a great outlook and perspective on the early days of motherhood. xo
Thanks Jessica! My original post went over each and every thing that had changed in my life but when it was deleted … I took it as a sign that I should skip all that crap b/c Moms know what changes. =0)
Beautiful post. You give me hope for what I can look forward to one day. Hopefully.
Thank you Laura! You will be just the same! Wait and see!
That little nugget is so cute!
SO TRUE! I was thinking about this the other night while I watched my little one sleep– i just didn’t want to do anything else ๐ I love this!
Such a sweet post. And she is just so beautiful!
This post was probably better than the original : ) For the first 6 weeks or so of my son’s life, I spent 80% of my time holding him or staring at him in some way! And it didn’t spoil him like everyone warned me it would- One day he just decided he didn’t want to cuddle anymore, so I’m glad I got the time when I could!
What an awesome attitude! It’s all how you look at things, and you are looking at it incredibly how we as mommy’s should… very blessed.
Considering this wasn’t the post you were planning on writing, it’s beautifully written!