You know what sucks about babies? I mean, aside from the poopy diaper explosions and tantrums that seem to never end?? It’s that babies can’t talk.
They can’t tell you what they did while you were at work and they were at baby school. They can’t tell you if the babies in their class were nice, or if the teachers picked them up when they cried. They can’t tell you if they were scared, or sad, or happy while you were away.
Babies can’t tell you anything.
Now, the teachers at baby school can tell me all about Annabelle’s day. They send me pictures and write me a little report about how many times she peed, pooped, ate, and slept. It’s fine and dandy, except for the fact that I still don’t feel like I really know how she is when I am gone. I don’t know if she is scared, or sad, or happy.
Yesterday was the first day that she was sad when I picked her up. She was sitting on the floor outside of the teacher’s area. She had her pacifier in her mouth (which she only recently has started doing while she is awake) and was holding on to her bunny for dear life. She was whimpering and her eyes were red, brimming with tears. My heart broke in half.
I snatched her up and squeezed her tight. She snuggled her face into my shoulder and started to cry.
I wanted to know what was wrong. I wanted to know WHY was she so sad?! But there was no one to ask. Her teachers said that she was probably hungry and that she had been having a tough day. What does that even mean? “She was having a tough day.” How do they know it was tough? What made it tough?
I am totally fine with Annabelle staying with my MIL (Coco) during the day. Mondays and Fridays are the best days of the week in our house! I know she is being hugged, loved, and cared for like she was Coco’s own daughter. I don’t worry she is sad, scared, or lonely because I know that there is no way she could feel that way when she is with her Coco. She doesn’t even cry when she is with her – it’s all smiles and fun.
But at baby school… smiles and fun seem rare.
Mom’s who have kids in daycare – how do you do it? How do you get through the days when you know your little one may be crying their eyes out? Because I know my girl is… they sent me a picture yesterday that clearly showed her little eyes all red and puffy… and it took everything in my power to not zoom out of work to go pick her up.