Well yesterday turned out to be quite exciting! A panic attack and an ambulance ride makes for a fun day.
I rode my first ambulance in Baltimore and I got to experience a REAL Baltimore City hospital. Boy oh boy was it fun!! I especially loved being all cozy with the patient in the bed next to me (only a curtain separated my soul mate and I) who reaked of cigarette smoke with the bum leg.
In a nut shell… if you have any kind of medical emergency at school, they WILL call an ambulance and you WILL go to the hospital, even if you say you are fine. I found out that even though this week I’ve been cool as a cucumber, I have some anxiety going on, which in turn has caused my resting heart rate to soar up to what it is usually at when I am spazzing while on the Zumba dance floor. My blood pressure was also all wacky and I was feeling a bit weird.
I was released after some tests were run (and they determined I wasn’t pregnant, which was a theory) with some anxiety medicine and some tips on how to de-stress myself. Funny thing is that I am NOT STRESSED.
If you read my blog you know that I wear my heart on my sleeve. When I am stressed, I tell people I am stressed, and I freak out about everything. But apparently, sometimes you harbor your feelings and emotions and then they come out in the form of whatever happened yesterday.
Thanks to my bff Nikki and Mr. Bear for sitting with me at the lovely BC Union Memorial Hospital. The staff was great, but the patients there were quite entertaining. Mr. Bear made me a yummy grilled Fontina and Pesto sandwich when we got home. I loves him.
Mcmuffin was so good to his momma last night…staying up to find out what happened on The Bachelor while I fell asleep.
This little guy loves technology.
Today is our 100th day at school – so we have lots of little fun activities planned – and some show called The Ned Show to attend – so I will be able to take it easy. I am SUPER BUMMED that we had to cancel our Valentines Day dinner tonight on the account that Mr. Bear thinks I need to rest and not go out wining and dining all night long. =0( Ohhhh well, looks like we will be in bed watching movies all night!
UPDATE: I had a full blown PANIC ATTACK. Fast forward a year, I know a lot about myself as a teacher and the anxiety I have been hiding. Fast forward a few more years and I am finally revealing more about my experience with anxiety and depression as a teacher.