My Grandmother has not passed away… but she has said her goodbyes to everyone. I write this as my heart breaks, for I cannot be home gathered in the hospital with my family.
I don’t know how to describe what I am feeling or thinking … just that my Grandmother means more to our family than you could ever believe. She is the glue that holds us together – she is the joy that fills our hearts – and we have always done everything we could to make her laugh because her laugh… it’s amazing.
My Grandma and her three beautiful daughters… the one in the white is my mother
She is in hospice now. She is comfortable. And my family is holding her hand and telling her it is okay to go to her husband and sons who are waiting for her in heaven above.
I am not good with quotes from the Bible. My relationship with God is very strong and very personal… and I know he knows how I am feeling and that he is trying to reassure me she will be in a more peaceful place. I just want to be there though, for my Grandma, holding her hand, telling her it’s going to be okay.
Please help me… please send me your love and prayers… send my family love and prayers… and send everything you’ve got to my Grandma so that she knows it is okay. It’s okay to leave us. And that she is comfortable and at peace.
A. says
Your family and Grandma are in my thoughts today.
Adorably Distracted... says
I went through this about 6 years ago and as I read your post, tears came back just thinking about how much hurt I had. That lump in my chest came back and I could literally feel the hurt. The best thing I can tell you to do is let it out. Cry a lot. Call out sick on Friday and go. As much as it hurts now, it will get better. The hurt fades and it becomes a sadness with happy memories.
I’m not going to tell you it’s all going to be ok because I know you don’t want to hear that. And the truth is, it takes time and I’m still not completely ok from 6 years ago. But just try and think about how happy she will be and how she won’t be sick anymore. That’s the only thing that ever got me through.
Saying lots of prayers and sending you lots of hugs.
Corinne says
Oh I am so sorry that you cannot be with your family right now. I’m sending many thoughts and prayers your way.
KDubyaF says
So sorry honey. Thinking about you and your family. Prayers coming your way.
Nicole says
My heart breaks for you. I will definitely be praying for you, your Grandma and your family during this tough time.
Mrs. Ruby says
Oh dear FRIEND! Although it is so deeply sad to say goodbye to someone who is loved so dearly, it is such a BLESSING to have such an amazing grandmother!
I went through this same thing when I lost my grandma (who truly helped raise me when I was younger), and it’s so difficult to lose someone whom you love so much. But just know, that the Lord has your sweet grandma in his loving arms! And you are right, He is assuring you that she is going to a more peaceful place.
You and your family are in my prayers!
Red Stethoscope says
Oh, dear. Sending peace your way!
This Bible verse always brings me comfort:
“The righteous perish, and no one ponders it in his heart; devout men are taken away, and no one understands that the righteous are taken away to be spared from evil.” -Isaiah 57:1
Megan says
I am so sorry and praying for you, your family, and your grandmother! I’m glad she is surrounded by her family and they are comforting her. Stay strong ๐
Carol {Everyday Delights} says
I am so sorry…sending prayers your way
That's Sassy says
So sorry for what you are going through and being away from your family..prayers and happy thoughts to you, your family, and your grandma.
Bre says
My thoughts are with you and your family in this difficult time.
I am so sorry that you are having to go through this, but please know how lucky you are to have been able to say goodbye. Some people never get that chance, nor do they get to have their grandparents around as long, or maybe ever know them. Knowing this pain means you have known the great joy that she has brought to your life and for that you can be grateful and know that when she finally passes, she will be at peace.
Kristin says
I’m so sorry lady! This is a beautiful post and I am thinking of you and your family.