My 8 year old nephew, was a funny little guy at the age of 3. When he heard the call of nature, he’d kindly tell everyone, “I need be privacy,” before disappearing into the bathroom. That was his way of saying, “Go away. Do not bother me. I need to make a poopy.” Pretty clever huh? He could have just said the latter.
I am starting to worry that maybe “I need be privacy.”
Not in the bathroom… but here with my blog.
I think I need to go private.
The reason: Two weeks from today I will begin a very rigorous and intense summer institute that will ultimately prepare me for being a teacher this fall. As a member of this certain program, I am expected to maintain various professional values. I fear that having my blog accessible to the public could jeopardize my efforts of being a responsible and trustworthy Mrs. Bear. Sometimes I curse on this blog. Sometimes I talk about my drinking habits. Sometimes I tell inappropriate stories. What if a very important person reads this and decides that maybe I am not the person they want teaching their kiddies??
My biggest hesitation: I will no longer be able to gain new followers, nor will my current ghost followers (those of you that don’t have a blogger account, do not visibly follow my blog, or don’t like to leave comments) be able to access my bloggy blog anymore.
I love getting new followers – especially when they leave me lots o’ lovin in my comment box – but I am worried that if I don’t put an invisible cloak over Think Happy Thoughts that maybe a big bad scary monster will find me and take advantage of me and ruin my career.
**I love blogging because I feel like I am documenting my life on the internet so that one day I can go back and show my kids what mommy was doing when she was 24. I love blogging because I have YOU. There is nothing better than checking your inbox and seeing a ton of comments just waiting to be published after a post. Seriously – I get SO excited I usually call my mom or Mr. Bear to tell them how many comments I get on good posts.
**I love that I know I can get lots of love, support, advice, compliments, and ideas from my followers. I take all of your comments seriously and quite often rely on what you all think when I am trying to make a decision.
**I love that I have made quite a few bloggy friends with whom I email on a weekly basis and look forward to meeting someday (two words: Disney World).
Bytheway – Just for the record, I don’t love that I haven’t been feeling your love over the past couple of days tho – did I piss someone off?! If so – please tell me! I like being told when I’ve done something wrong so I can fix it. I’d rather know than just think I am no longer interesting or funny.
Will you still actively follow me if I go private?
Will you tell your bloggy friends about my super duper cool blog and send me their email so they can follow me too??
Should I stay public for the summer, work on getting followers by becoming a stellar blogger, until I become a real bonified teacher?