…I am crazy? Mr. Bear left for Cali this morning and I’m a mess. Let’s start from the beginning…
I lost the ring Mr. Bear bought me for our first Christmas together. One minute it was on my hand in his apartment. Literally 10 minutes later, we were still in his apartment, and it was gone. Never to be found.
I went to Indiana and Ohio with my in-laws for the holidays. I brought my baggy of earrings and my under-eye concealer. I vividly remember packing them to go home with us. I have not seen either since.
Last week I misplaced the necklace Mr. Bear bought me for my 19th birthday. That means he gave it to me 7 years ago. And it is gone. Nowhere to be found.
Yesterday I realized my passport is missing. Last time I saw it was the beginning of March when I went to the DMV. I came home, put it in the important box, and now it is gone.
WHAT THE HECK IS WRONG WITH ME?
I have been really thinking about this… and I am worried there is something more wrong with me than a little forgetfulness/carelessness.
*I have always been organized…I am on time ALL THE TIME with appointments, deadlines, work, etc. I am usually even early.
*I am a bit anal, a little OCD, and little noises drive me insane. Chewing, tapping, ticking, etc. I can’t take it.
*I am constantly misplacing and/or losing important things… probably b/c I am always doing 3 different things at once…. however, lots of times I never get EVERYTHING on my to do list done.
*I often find myself sitting and doing the same thing for a seriously long time without realizing the amount of time that’s passed….example: I can read a book for 4 hours straight without moving or interruption.
*I get really stressed out about things, and I often overreact about situations with worry and anxiety.
* I plan for events weeks in advance and usually end up forgetting something important.
ONCE AGAIN, WHAT THE HECK IS WRONG WITH ME? I know I am not normal.
I don’t know what to do with myself. I am really upset with myself – frustrated, stressed, angry. Help me friends. Tell me how to fix myself.