Being a new Mom is…
Euphoric (thanks Britt!).
Nothing like I imagined.
Tomorrow I am celebrating my first Mother’s Day with Annabelle and B. It is surreal – to think that last year I was almost 3 months pregnant and completely clueless as to how I would feel with my daughter in my arms a year later.
Sometimes I look down at Annabelle and I start crying (hormones right?). I smile and I cry and I think, “How did I get so lucky?” It is scary… holding this tiny human, who just looks at me with so much love, and knowing that at I am (partly) responsible for her for the rest of my life. There are so many things I want to give her. So many things I want to do for her. I want to protect her from all that is wrong in this world. I want to give her everything that she needs. I want to make her happy. I want to comfort her when she is hurt. I want to make her laugh. I want to teach her how to love, how to be grateful, and how to be strong. Then I have to ask myself, how is it possible to do all these things?
I know it is possible because my Mother did it for me. And her mother did it for her. We all teach each other and will support each other through the good and the bad. I am so lucky to have such an amazing Mother, and so many wonderful friends who are new/old Moms, who have been guiding be through this new role in life.